Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Birthday my Jeremy

Today is my Jeremy's Birthday. He would be 38 today. I miss him more than I can say. I laid in bed this morning and thought of how on May 13th 1974, Brad and I were on our way to work together at 8:00 in the morning when we decided to stop at the hospital and see if anything was going on because I'd been having contractions since 3:30 a.m.  Since it was my first baby and I was dilated to a ONE, they kept me. Finally our Jeremy was born at 7:00 p.m. just in time for Family Home Evening.  What a sweetheart. I could not quit holding him, kissing him and smelling his beautiful baby smell. Time gets away from us so fast. Now he's been gone as long as he was a live, 19 years. I'm so thankful that I know without a doubt that he's not gone from me forever. He is a sweet loving wonderful person. A while before he died, he came into my room and got on my bed and with tears in his eyes thanked me for all I've done for him. He told me that I had sacrificed so much and given so much and he appreciated and loved me for it. I felt so inadequate for all these compliments but I also felt like the best and happiest mom that ever lived. My Jeremy saw something in me that maybe only he saw because he saw past all the bad choices and past the human me. He saw me the way I see my Mamma and for that I'm forever in awe and very grateful. I still think of that day and how sweet his face was as he told me how much he loved me. Thank you for that memory my sweet Jeremy. How I miss you!!! Happy Birthday my sweet one...On that day you gave me more than I'd ever given you.

2 comments:

Jenni S said...

I'm so thankful he did that and that you have that memory to cherish. How sweet. Love you.

Juli said...

I love you Mom, thanks for posting that.